Day 10

Day 10. Purpose

I blog a lot about finding my purpose in life. Probably because I am always looking for that "thing" I was made for.  Always looking for something that will catch me when I feel like my life is dull, and meaningless. A safety net to tell me that I have worth when I don't feel like I do. Because let's be honest, all of us have those moments.

Nothing brings into question your purpose, like spending all of your time with kids. I was first really challenged by my own desire for "purpose" when I started teaching preschool a few years ago. From the outside everyone can agree that guiding young minds is of the utmost importance, but from the inside you're being puked on and spending hours upon hours trying to get your class to form a line even for a moment. I am sure that many moms feel this way too, like theirs day are at times a monotony, a series of great moments and discouraging moments. Where then is the purpose in that?

Once my idea of "purpose" was in question, I was able to really explore the possibility. What if my purpose isn't a life encompassing mission, but always changing, morphing to fit each moment. Is God big enough to give us that gift? Can we trust that in every moment we have purpose?

I have begun to believe that such a thing is true.

In my every moment, in my waking and sleeping, in my joy and my pain. There is purpose. He is big enough to accomplish all things through our every moments.

So my new purpose is to live life and trust that what He wants to accomplish in me, He will.

Psalm 138:8
"The Lord will fulfill his purpose for me; your steadfast love, O Lord, endures forever. Do not forsake the work of your hands."