intentional breaks

Usually words flow from me with such ease. I ache to let them out. Sometimes I can barely get to my computer fast enough to type out what I'm thinking. 

Not recently. 

If there's one thing that I know about myself it's that I have the ability to take something I love and turn it into an obligation very easily. As soon as I feel that happening I know that I need to just take a step back and let it come back to me. This has been an important part of my running journey as well. As soon as it stops being enjoyable to me for whatever reason, I just need to take a break.

 Am I okay with not always "loving" the things that I love? I am. Because I have learned over the years that even the things you love can become things you despise when you make it an obligation. It's that part of me that takes things way to far. That part of me that decided to eat less in high school and was suddenly eating nothing. That part of me that starts running and can't bring myself to stop. That part of me that takes out the hammer when I just don't feel "good enough".

So nowadays I check myself when I start to take things to far. Writing is my release, my peace, my passion. But when it's not, that is okay too. I want to allow myself the flexibility to be what I need to be in each moment. 

So, I will be back! Maybe tomorrow, maybe not. But the creative juices will flow once more!

Thanks for all the love and support friends!

P.S. this is where I would love to be right now!